Thank you's.

Hello everyone. (:
I just wanted to share some pictures for this weeks challenge that were sent in. :P
They're from a person very close to my heart. My adopted brother, Sean. (:
We all love you Seany Sean. ^-^
Thanks for supporting our family for the past year. Thank you for participating with my blog. Lol. (:
I also want to thank my little brother, "Tunafish" who has been commenting on almost every post. Haha. Thanks, Little bro. I love you kiddo. :P
And......My mother. Who is here and there correcting my posts. Telling me when I fail and laughing at me when I do. Thanks for putting up with my horrid grammar and spelling. Thanks for setting me straight. And help me clean up the coffee. ;P
And also my Grand mother, whose housed us when we came back for the summer. We all love you and miss you. This includes Grand-pa as well, whose humor is always amazing but not always appropriate but its never fail to make us laugh. (:
Last but not least, my blood brother Josh. :D I miss him tons! He's off to college soon. He's taught me sooo much in the last few years, he was good us all. God bless you, Joshy. I hope you succeed. I believe in you. Thank for not giving up on me. And thank you for being there when I needed you the most. (:

Forever Yours,
Kirstie.

Defining the Great Line.

Hello everyone,
I got back from camp recently where I became closer to God. I have been struggling with being suicidal. I have tried to kill myself 6 times in the past three years of my life. I also have trouble trusting people. I don't let myself get attached to people either. I found God and He has taken the weight of suicide off my shoulders. But to be extremely honest it keeps coming back. Suicide is an on going battle that I myself am struggling with. The thoughts that pass through my mind have been there since I was in the 6th grade. The feeling that I was unloved and unwanted. It was like I could scream in the middle of the hall way in school and no one would care, almost like I was not there at all. I constantly cut and harmed myself. Not a single person at my school knew what I had gotten myself into. Not even my parents knew what I was doing. I wanted to forget the pain that I had concealed deep with in myself so I figured I would try that. It became an addiction, like a drug. I kept going at it. I covered it up and put up a fake smile that no one could see through. But God could. He was the only one that knew what was going on. He came after me and I continued to run. I finally said to Him "God, I can't do this anymore!" It had gotten so bad that I figured the only escape would be to take my life.

But God had a different plan. He kept whispering in my ear "Kirstie, I love you. Don't give up." The knife i had been holding for hours had been thrown from my hand and I wasn't even the one to drop it. Just when I was at my lowest about to give up on the world I found a glimmer of hope that would carry me through. Every time I get the thought of suicide I run to God and I cry out to him. I love him with ALL my heart. I have been called to be a leader. God is amazing and he has shown himself to me countless times. He meets the needs of my family every day. He has blessed me increasingly. I have learned that he has a plan for everyone, including me. I hope that my story has influenced people to give there lives to God. I have shared it quite a few times. I only hope that God will use me for the good of his kingdom. This has been on my heart to post for a while. I wanted to spread the news of God's love by using a bit of my story. And the best part is that its not over yet. (: I still have many more years to come. So, I just want everyone to remember that GOD LOVES YOU NO MATTER WHAT!!!! He will never leave you or forsake you.

THIS WEEKS CHALLENGE: Photograph your favorite place in the world. It could be any where ex... Your room, the woods, the beach, or even a country. (Mine is at the top.)
Send it in to; Chaotickirstie@live.com

Thank you so much.

GOD LOVES YOU,
Kirstie.